Anna goes under the knife (sounds horrible when you say it like that doesn't it) tomorrow morning. The surgery is not that big of a deal, just gettin' some ear tubes put in. But i have been in a horrible panic. I am so nervous about her being put under (gosh that sounds horrible as well). The doctor acts like it is not that big of a deal, the parents that I have talked to have all assured me that it's not that big of a deal and the websites that I have been googling have claimed that it's not that big of a deal. So, I guess it's not that big of a deal. However, I am nervous about the effects of the gas that they are going to use to put her to sleep. they are going to gas my child? even that sounds horrible. "yeah, we're just going to gas your child, cut a hole in her ear and put a tube in there to drain the water out." AAAH. When I was little I had a grand total of 7 ear tubes put in but seeing your own child go through something like that is heart breaking. I just have to keep in mind that she'll be able to hear better, so better speech development, and the pain of constant ear infections will hopefully go away. Poor thing has been in pain since before she was born.
Now on to something completely different
This morning I got Paul registered for Kindergarten. As I was walking out of the building I felt very proud and accomplished. I had no regrets. I had been home with him for 4 wonderful years. I had been there for every little milestone. As I was walking through the doors I couldn't help but think "this is why I choose my family over a "career" So that I could truly enjoy each stage of my child's life. No regrets. I haven't missed a thing" Now I'm trying to figure out whether or not he is socially ready to go this coming year or if I should hold him back. He doesn't turn 5 until this summer and the cut off date is Oct 1, 2010. He will be the youngest in his class and his preschool teacher thinks that holding him off just one more year will be better in the long run. I don't know. I am confused. This is such a big decision for me to make. Gosh I'm just 25 I shouldn't be trying to figure out whether or not my child is ready for kindergarten. So, I have dusted off my old psychology books from college and I am going to be emailing old professors. I can't make this decision alone.
On top of all these decisions I have several books for class to read, a paper and a presentation due next thursday. My brain hurts.