I AM

Warning, this post contains sappy stuff:

I have always loved this song.  Over the years it seems to be the song that I keep going to when I feel so frustrated that can't breathe.  

It reminds me that even though I feel alone at times, that I am really not. 

It reminds me that the hardships that we all face in life have some sort of purpose in the grand scheme of things.

Today at lunch Anna started talking about having her 3rd birthday party. She will be turning 3 at the end of May and is so excited about having a party. She has the WHOLE thing planned "all of my friends will wear pink panty hose and we will have cute little birthday hats! I want a BIG HUGE pink cake with sparkles and LOTS of candles."  Paul, in his big brother voice, said to her "Anna you were just a little bitty baby when I turned 3."

For some reason that little conversation melted my heart. Listening to them talk to one another amazes me. They have these cute little conversations that center around what they seem to think is the MOST important things in life, like turning 3 years old.

This morning while I was knitting and sipping tea, anna decided she wanted to join me. I made her a little cup of "tea" and gave her some knitting needles and yarn. She sat beside me twisting the yarn around her little knitting needle, with a BIG smile on her face "yep mom.... we are knitting little hats..... we have to work hard with this yarn mom!"  In her sweet little mind she was having a knitting party with me!  

The Lyrics to I Am

Pencil marks on a wall
I wasn't always this tall,
You scattered some monsters from beneath my bed,
You watched my team win,
You watched my team lose,
You watched when my bicycle went down again,
CHORUS:
And When I was weak unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Elbow healer, Superhero,
come if You can,” and You said “I am”
Only 16, life is so mean, what kind of curfew is at ten PM
You saw my mistakes, You watched my heart break
Heard when I swore I’d never love again
CHORUS:
When I was weak, unable to speak,
still I could call You by name,
and I said “Heart-ache Healer, Secret-keeper,
be my Best Friend” and You said “I am”
You saw me wear white, by pale candlelight,
I said forever to what lies ahead
two kids and a dream, with kids that can scream
too much it might seem when it’s two AM
CHORUS:
when I am weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name.
“Oh Shepherd, Savior, Pasture-maker,
hold on to my hand,” and You say “I am.”
The winds of change,
And circumstance blow in and all around
us so we find a foothold that’s familiar,
And bless the moments that we feel You nearer
Life had begun, I was woven and spun,
You let the angels dance around the throne, who can say when,
But they’ll dance again, when I am free and finally headed home
CHORUS:
I will be weak, unable to speak,
still I will call You by name
“Creator, Maker, Life-sustainer,
Comforter, Healer, My Redeemer,
Lord and King, Beginning and
the End, I am, yes, I am.”